I feel almost shy about this: as if my drawings of cum, of men post-orgasm covered in cum, were TOO explicit, TOO personal. Are they?
The truth is, I love cum. I love having an orgasm and being covered in my own cum: dripping down my penis, coating my fingers, shooting onto my belly, breast, thigh, my naked body. I love making my lover cum, then coating my fingers with his ejaculation and using it to lubricate my own cock, and stroking myself, whether or not I’ve already orgasmed. Sometimes I will orgasm again. Sometimes I will have a whole swarm of non-ejaculatory orgasms, stroking myself after ejaculating, my penis still leaking drops of lubricum.
Is it too much to say that? To draw that? Does it cross the line into pure pornography? Am I sailing past erotica and into porn? Well, maybe so.
But I share the art, the writing, for my own pleasure—including renewed secondary pleasure, like a second masturbation session after the initial session that I was writing or drawing about. Is that recursively self-pleasuring enough for you? Does my cum art turn you on as much as it makes me cum?
And there is a technical aspect to drawing practice with cum on skin: learning to draw liquid, and translucent liquid at that. I’ve done a few drawings for the masturbation book that were not successful because I didn’t get the ejaculate to look right, even if I got the body’s exertions, the look on the face, the position and tension of the fingers just right. A better way to depict cum on flesh that looks more realistic might be to color the flesh in natural skin tones, while the ejaculate looks white or translucent on the flesh—in a word, not colored.
I have been practicing this look with both watercolor and colored pencils. I like a lot of the drawings I make using a combination of ink and colored pencil, which I can shade in with gradations. My favorite pencils are also water-soluble watercolor pencils, so sometimes I leave the pencil tones dry, and sometimes I give them a color wash with a wet brush. Drops or dribbles, streamers or dots and bubbles, all the different ways they ejaculate, exemplifying the fluid dynamics and relative viscosity of their cum.
I keep exploring new technical choices in these pieces. They are experiments.
So what does it matter if they are pornographic? I am learning from drawing practice, and from color media. I won’t share the failures. I will share most of the successes.
Even if they are explicit, even pornographic.
After all, with many drawings I’ve made from photo references, the photo referred to was a porn image. Sometimes a nudist image found online.
I like cum. I like seeing men cum in orgasm, ejaculating their sperm all over themselves, or onto their lover(s), and I like seeing the cum-tracks on their bodies as they relax post-orgasm. Don’t clean yourselves up too soon, boys. Let the cum soak in awhile. Don’t rush. Breathe. Enjoy that afterglow and fading into peace.
And i will picture your cum, and mine.
